Motivation
I have always been the guy that hits the gym hard for two weeks, and then falls off the wagon. I remember my sister telling me once “I can’t believe you buy such expensive jeans when your weight fluctuates so much” and there was nothing wrong with her saying this, it was true. It wasn’t for medical reason or anything like that, it was my own fault. It has happened far too many times, that I lose 40 pounds and then put 20 back on, and then lose 10 pounds and put 30 back on, I could never seem to stick to my diet. This year I have tried to be better on reflecting back on myself, trying to be harder on myself, and trying to make plans and stick with them. I have put more time in at work this year than I ever have, I have done more work out in the woods than I ever have, and it just doesn’t feel like enough. Its okay though, because at the end of the day I don’t feel like it is enough because I know I can be better and I want to be better. I look back at where I was three years ago, in a relationship that wasn’t going anywhere, drinking to the point of backing out when I had the chance, and worse of all, pushing away friends because I wasn’t confident enough in myself to let my significant other go out without me. I had a lot of problems and all of them were self induced. I bring this up because it is all surrounded by my lack of motivation. Lack of motivation to get up a few minutes earlier for work so I wasn’t rushed, to go to the gym even if it was only for 30 minutes, to go out in the woods and enjoy my true passion. It affected my entire life, and it hasn’t been a immediate change but I do my best everyday to stay conscious of where I was and where I want to be. Ever day is a new day to be a better version of yourself. Take the time to reflect on what you could have done different today, and what you are going to do different tomorrow. You don’t have to hate yourself if you don’t achieve what you wanted to, but be mindful of it, and make small improvements to be better the next time. YOU are the only thing in the way of your goals. Go fucking get them.